"I wish I had that ability [to turn the page]," Showalter said. "This year, it really stung, it cut deep in a lot of ways, the way it ended, and sometimes the way your decisions kind of put your players, your organization and your fans in a defensive mode. It's tough, and I'm hoping spring training turns the page for me. I really am, because you wear it. You take it very seriously, and not just me. Our fans do.