"It's kind of embarrassing, quite frankly. I don't make any bones about it. I love baseball players, and it's been an honor to manage this long, with so many good people -- general managers and owners and people who give you an opportunity," said Showalter, 55, who has managed four teams in 14 big league seasons. "I'm looking forward to tomorrow and the focus being off it a little, but I'm very appreciative of the players. They made me feel very young tonight, even though I'm an old goat."