Orioles starting pitcher Justin Duchscherer, who has been on the 15-day disabled list since the end of spring training and who has pitched in just five games since 2008, opened up about his clinical depression for an article in the latest issue of Men's Journal magazine, which hits newsstands tomorrow.
Duchscherer was diagnosed with clinical depression in 2009 after he went through a divorce and injured his throwing elbow. The Orioles were aware of Duchscherer's physical and mental health issues when they signed the two-time All Star to a low-risk, $700,000 one-year contract during the offseason.
"My problem is I'm a soft guy in a profession of hard guys," Duchscherer told Men's Journal, which provided USA Today with a sneak preview of the article. "I'd prefer to be playing tennis.
"People think if you're rich, you must be happy. They can't understand why you're not. I feel guilty making so much money playing a game. If I pitch a shutout, it doesn't make me happy. I think of the guys I struck out, how they're going home, depressed, to their families."
It's unclear if he'll be able to bounce back from hip and back injuries and take the mound for the Orioles, who have had injury issues in their rotation this season. "I never doubted my ability to pitch," Duchscherer said.