Yet the majority of women — up to 70 percent — who suffer from perinatal mood disorders do not seek treatment. I didn't. I didn't even know that the extreme anxiety after having a baby was an illness. I thought I was going crazy. I thought that for years, actually, until I got help and discovered I could be a calm, loving mother to my son and not a terrified, sweaty, weeping mess going through the motions. Bottle cleaning, diaper changing, lunch preparing. Preventing him from falling from his high chair.