Dwayne "Buzz" Williams, assistant principal of Bel Air High School, will release his book Spare Parts, which details his experiences in the Persian Gulf war as a Marine reservist, March 8.
Spare Parts begins with a journal entry Williams wrote 14 years ago in his first days of boot camp at Parris Island, S.C., followed by a chronological account of the training he underwent, his experiences while in combat overseas and the years after his return to the United States.
Williams documents his difficulties with what he calls "reintegration" - the mental, physical and emotional transition from being in combat-ready Marine mode to society-ready civilian mode - as well as obsessive-compulsive disorder and the post-traumatic stress disorder that resulted from the war.
After losing his father to cancer and struggling in school, Williams enlisted in the Marine Reserves to honor his older brother, a soldier who died in a car accident when Williams was 17, he said. At the time, it seemed as if the armed forces could offer him the respect he craved with minor effort - a dangerous assumption, he later discovered.
He received his training as a Marine - or, as he says, an assassin - on weekends while working as an elementary school physical education teacher.
"It was tough to be in combat-mode for 48 hours and then have to turn around and be nice," he said. "[The children] knew. They would say, 'Mr. Williams is always mean at the beginning of the week, but then he's nice again later.' It's hard to turn it on and off."
In November 1991, Williams was deployed, forced to leave behind his newly discovered love for teaching and his girlfriend, now his wife, Gina.
"Nobody wants to admit they don't want to go," he said. "I was looking for every way possible to get out."
He asked to be discharged because of a knee injury and because he was a sole-surviving son, but Williams' requests were denied and he was sent to the Persian Gulf with his comrades, unprepared for the harsh reality they were about to face.
In Spare Parts (the title is a term used by some members of the military to refer to reservists), Williams describes the horrors he witnessed after four weeks of training, including suicides, funerals and gruesome battle wounds of fellow soldiers.
He tells the tale of Palestinian children run over by a foreign military vehicle as they begged for food. He offers a look at the politics of the armed forces and describes the day he lived through a vehicle rollover.
After his return to the United States, Williams married in 1993 and returned to teaching, but he was haunted by his days in battle. He relived his wartime experiences daily in nightmares and flashbacks, and constantly feared that he would have to return to war.
"It took me seven years to be able to cope with combat," he said. "The process of writing this book has actually helped me more than anything."
In the years that followed, Williams established a breakthrough program for students with behavioral problems at the Kennedy Krieger Institute in Baltimore. He used his military training - including marching, uniforms and medals - to create a reward-based program, similar to Junior ROTC, which is in place today.
He was named a National Teacher of the Year for his efforts in 1997.
After working at Kennedy Krieger for several years, Williams came to Bel Air High School as assistant principal in 2002 to be closer to his family.
He decided to leave the military in 1995, mainly because of the responsibility that came with his new family, and he received his discharge two years later.
"I couldn't stay in any longer," he said. Now that he has two children, he said, he "can't imagine having to say goodbye to a child."
After the Sept. 11 attacks, as troops were being called for war in the Middle East once again, Williams said his anxieties and Marine memories came back to him rapidly, prompting him to write Spare Parts last year.
"I wrote a few chapters and gave them to some of the faculty to read," he said. "They would come back and say, 'Hey, this is really good,' and it took off from there. ... I really think I have something to share with the greater Reserve community."
Williams will be at the White Marsh Barnes & Noble bookstore, 8123 Honeygo Blvd., from 7:30 p.m. to 9:30 p.m. March 10 for a discussion and book signing. He will be at the Bel Air Barnes & Noble, 620 Marketplace Drive, for a book signing from 6 p.m. to 8 p.m. March 13.