LONDON -- She said she doesn't want a divorce, doesn't think she'll be queen, and is not so sure her husband Charles, the Prince of Wales, wants to be king.
And for Princess Diana, that was just for starters. In a 55-minute bittersweet interview broadcast by the British Broadcasting Corp., she also confirmed she had post-partum depression, tried frequently to injure herself, once suffered from bulimia and had an affair with cavalry officer James Hewitt.
"Yes, I adored him. Yes, I was in love with him. But I was very let down," she said of Mr. Hewitt.
As for her husband Charles' self-confessed affair with Camilla Parker Bowles she said: "There were three of us in this marriage, so it was a bit crowded."
Di dished the royal dirt with shimmering eyes and a nervous half-smile. Wearing a dark suit and sitting in her suite at Kensington Palace in the interview taped Nov. 5, Diana brought the country along on a journey from her fairytale marriage in 1981, to her separation in 1992 to her present state.
She painted a picture of a royal court divided by intrigue, with officials and retainers taking sides after she separated from her husband, the heir to the British throne.
As for her future, she said she is unlikely to be queen.
"I'd like to be a queen of people's hearts, in people's hearts," she said. "But I don't see myself being queen of this country. I don't think many people want me to be a queen, I mean, the establishment They've decided I'm a non-starter."
Of her marriage, she said: "I desperately wanted it to work, I desperately loved my husband and I wanted to share everything together, and I thought that we were a very good team."
tTC But she said she felt overwhelmed by the media spotlight, and suffered from depression after the birth of her eldest son William, an heir to the throne.
She also admitted harming herself, a subject that had been detailed fully in a biography by Andrew Morton.
"I was ashamed because I couldn't cope with the pressures," she said. "I just hurt my arms and my legs."
Diana also discussed her problems with bulimia.
Diana said that with a "women's intuition," she realized that in 1986 that her husband had again taken up with an old flame, Mrs. Parker Bowles.
She said she was "devastated" when her husband admitted the adultery in a 1994 television interview.
"But then I admired the honesty, because it takes a lot to do that."
In what later years may prove to be the most controversial statements of all, she suggested that Charles isn't sure if he wants to be king.
"Being Prince of Wales produces more freedom," she said. "Being king will be more suffocating. Because I know the character, I would think the top job, as I call it, would bring enormous limitations to him, and I don't know whether he could adapt to that.
"My wish is my husband finds peace of mind, and from that follows other things," she added.
Such as a royal divorce?
"I don't want a divorce," she said. "But obviously we need clarity on the situation. There has been enormous discussion the last three years."
"I await my husband's decision on which way we are all going to go," she added.
And what role would be left for Diana, whether divorced or married? She said she wants to be an ambassador for Great Britain.
"I'm not a political animal," she said. "But the biggest disease this world suffers from is the disease of feeling unloved. I know I can give love."