A phone call in the night
Shakes the silence
Like an avalanche of fear.
The peace breaks
Suddenly.
And I am frozen for a moment:
Mind ablaze, but legs of stone.
My heart ahead of me --
I need to move,
To make an answer to the sad, red siren that I see
Relentlessly racing out of my sight
When a phone call comes in the middle of the night.
. . . It was not always so.
The nightmares that I used to know were washed away by lullabies
And soothed by Daddy's tender eyes.
The alligators by the bed, my Daddy filled with a sense of dread.
One glance from Daddy, they were dead,
Or so I thought.
For so he said.
And there was time, so long and deep
To read and rhyme and rock to sleep.
Once upon a time ago
When Daddy made the darkness glow . . .
My husband turns in bed and fumbles for the phone.
Breathless, I: "Is it Dad?"
And the reprieve: "Only a wrong number."
And the hand in mine: "Everything's fine . . . Go back to sleep."
But sleep comes slowly, by and by
A turn away from dawn,
The stillness echoes, like a cry,
My dark intruder is not gone --
A phone call in the night
Rearranges the landscape of the future in a cavern deep,
Replays the past
And leaves me in the present
Growing
Older
More fragile in the song I sing
( To rock myself to sleep.