He looks, hauntingly, like me—a little heftier, a slightly longer beard. How can I see him and feel good about symbolic acts? I have the quality he values most. I could have ended up like him. I grew up in Columbia, where Newsome took down the rebel battle flag. I was taught, not so much at home, but in the world around me, to honor people like Robert E. Lee. And I was taught not to notice my own whiteness. Now, I can't not notice it. After I left Charlottesville, I feltmdisgusted by my own skin. Whenever I saw another white person, I cringed, wondering which side they were on, and I knew people thought the same thing of me.