DD: Scott and Eric from the Maryland Film Festival posted it on Facebook. And it was just Bill Murray doing like, a Q&A, talking about his philosophy on his life and career and this particular part that really resonated with me was like, "You can do the very best you can when you're very, very relaxed. The more relaxed you are, the better you are." And that really blew my mind. Because I was very like, deadline-motivated and stress-motivated and I was like, "Oh, I'll just wait until the last minute and then fuck it, I'll have to do it." Terrible way to live. But I feel like everyone lives that way. We're trained and conditioned to wait until the last minute. Even though I'll be like, "OK, this is due in four months." And months leading up to it, I'll lay in bed like, "Oh God, fuck oh no." Like in the morning or at night or any time when I could just be doing it. But it's just like, "No no, I gotta wait." Which means I'm never relaxed. And then when I try to relax it's just to get me out of my own head. Which means a distraction or time wasting. Which means I'm not ever bored. If I'm never relaxed and I'm never bored, it's a terrible combination if I'm trying to be creative. Because you need boredom to have your mind drift and if your mind doesn't drift then you never get lost in thought. If you never get lost in thought, then you never think things that you wouldn't have thought otherwise. So if you're constantly not relaxed and constantly never bored, what the fuck are you doing? And that was my whole existence. And so that's why I was like you try, in situations like that, you try to control the smallest aspects of your reality, like shutting that door, or rotating that cup, or like fixing the cuff of my pants because those are things that I feel like I can have control over but I would think like, "I have a piece due for orchestra in a month. I haven't started it. I should have spent years on it."