At the last minute, I change my request from INXS' 'Need You Tonight' to 'Never Tear Us Apart.' A ballad fits the night better, fits my mood better—it's cold and rainy, I'm making friends in stutters and starts, and people here are too drunk to dance, but not too drunk to sway and point their fingers in the air during the high notes. Karaoke is where we come when we need to feel bigger and better than we are, sexier, more in control, and an INXS ballad makes me feel this tonight. It's got the notes I can hit. The enormous support of the crowd, and the Yuengling haze, lifts me through a fog of loneliness and homesickness. Maybe it can do that for you, too. And I'm laughing, a lot, especially at choices that might have been misguided, at myself, and at how I barely recognize myself these days.