"I knew I was finished," he recalls. "I was a terrorist by the definition of the regime, and guys caught doing exactly what I was doing, if they were caught in Iraq or Afghanistan, they'd be in Guantanamo. I felt like I had left my mother alone since my grandparents had died, and I knew she'd never stop fighting to get me released, but I don't want to become, like, the cause of her life. I want her to enjoy her retirement. I thought I'd never see my girlfriend again, and I thought maybe someday I'd get out in like 20, 30 years and meet the children that should've been my children. It was quite a depressing time. I figured that the regime had sent assassins to Nouri's house and killed him for this, for me, and for what's on the video. It was my fault. I worried about the guys I was captured with, if they were being tortured, if they were imprisoned, if they would ever get out."