I'm a good-looking, fit, younger guy living in Southern California. I'm getting older, though, and have never been in love or had any kind of serious relationship. I'm straight, but in the past five years I discovered that sexuality is gray, not black or white. I learned this when I accidentally dove into the world of trans. I go on Craigslist and other sites and find local trans girls to engage with in sexual activity. It's hard to describe why I'm into it, but I just am—maybe it satisfies a sexual side of me that women don't? Regardless, I've felt like this is an issue getting in the way of my quest to find a great woman and start a family, which I'd like to do in the next few years. I'm caught between thinking my sexual addiction is hindering my advancement toward a family life and enjoying the rush and sexual gratitude I'm inundated with when I meet up with trans girls. Is it something I definitely need to put an end to, or has it become a part of me that I can't deny and hide?