AB: From a young age. I am assigned male, so I was raised as male. Even if you go back to me at like the age of 4, I'd be with my cousins sometimes like, "Hey I wanna wear your lipstick, can you paint my toenails?" And sometimes people in my family would do that but more out of like, "Oh, this is just a kid thing." And I'm saying this as someone who's 20 now, so I don't remember everything that went on when I was 5 but I never really perceived how gender really existed that much among people around me until I was in elementary school. Like pronouns, that's something that existed, but to me it was like, the idea of gender roles was something that no one threw at me, even my parents until I was like probably like 6 or 7. It was especially getting to me being in middle school. I would even tell people, "Hey I don't really feel like male or anything." I even tell that stuff to my mom and she'd be like, "Well, whatever you're still a man" and it made no sense to me. I didn't even know what it actually meant to be trans until I was like 16 or so. I didn't have any exposure. When you grow up, most of the time it's like, your exposure to trans people is through TV like "South Park" or "Family Guy" or some shit. Or shitty tabloids. And because it's cis people who often have zero interaction with trans people talking about trans people, the way that you think of trans people growing up, it's like the same way you think about drag queens. It's like you're ignoring that there's an actual identity or a thought process behind it being like, "This is who I actually am and I'm not living as that person right now." It's a huge, almost like taboo subject. In the way trans people are being portrayed, especially over the last few months with Caitlyn Jenner being on magazine covers, for trans women especially. But the thing is nonbinary people don't exist in the media. I say that I identify as trans feminine and I'd say I'm more nonbinary than anything else. But I will sometimes say I am a trans woman because I still do feel very close to that identity but my gender is also fluid at times but there are times that I feel like more of a woman and other times I feel just more outside of all of that.