The end greets so many ballplayers like a concrete wall — faceless and unforgiving. Take away the 97-mph fastball or the 400-foot home runs and daily fulfillment no longer seems so easily attainable.
Chris Ray, though, he had beer.
Don't worry. It's not how it sounds. The angel-faced closer of Orioles clubs past didn't turn to the bottle to dull the pain of losing his arm strength.
Ray, who last pitched in the major leagues in 2011, actually makes beer at the craft brewery he opened with his older brother, Phil, in Ashland, Va. And he loves it, loves it so much that he says he hardly misses the once-in-a-lifetime feel of climbing the mound and pumping gas past the best hitters in the world.
"A lot of guys in my situation, I think once they retire, they have no idea what to do," the 31-year-old Ray says. "But for me, it was kind of liberating in a way."
Those who knew him in Baltimore aren't surprised. Ray was trying to educate them on the subtleties of fine pale ales long before he shelved his glove.
"You know there's wine snobs?" says current Orioles closer Jim Johnson, who was Ray's teammate for four years. "Well, he's a beer snob."
This is an important time of year for Ray and his Center of the Universe brewery. He made his entry into the beer world two years ago, pairing with Seattle's Fremont Brewing Co. to produce Homefront IPA, aged on Louisville Slugger bats and sold to raise money for Operation Homefront, a charity that supports military families.
In 2011, they sold 30 barrels of Homefront IPA around the Seattle area, raising about $8,000. Last year, they enlisted craft breweries around the country and raised $165,000. Ray hopes this year's release, timed to Memorial Day, will be even bigger.
Though Baltimore fans would have to go to Virginia to get the beer, Johnson is serving as one of Ray's ambassadors in the charity effort. "He just asked me to support him, and I think what they're doing is really cool," Johnson says.
'He does it the whole way'
From childhood, Ray always took his hobbies seriously. "When we'd get home from school and finish our homework, I'd go out and ride my bike around the neighborhood," recalls his brother. "But Chris was always out in the side yard with Dad, throwing the baseball."
When he was with the Orioles, Ray's fixation was carpentry. He observed carefully as a contractor finished his basement and went on to redo another room in the house by himself. Then there was the time he was injured and bought a 1992 Mustang on eBay, scouring the Internet for weeks in search of the best deals on replacement parts.
"If he gets involved in something," Johnson says, "he does it the whole way."
Ray developed a taste for finer beer when he made enough money to buy Sierra Nevada Pale Ale instead of the cheaper swill he drank in college. In 2008, a former teammate from William & Mary brought a home brewing kit by his house.
"There are just so many ingredients, so many styles," Ray says, explaining how he got hooked. "It's basically limitless what you can do with beer. It tapped into a creative side of me."
His first home brew was a pumpkin ale, a little heavy on the ginger, he recalls, but "good enough that I was not discouraged."
He guessed that his brother, then an engineer in Tampa, Fla., might also enjoy the brewing hobby. So he sent him a kit. Soon, brewing was 80 percent of what the Rays talked about.
"He'd call and it would be, 'How you doing? How's work?'" Phil Ray says. "But we'd quickly get to, 'So, what you got in the fermenter?'"
Meanwhile, Ray tried to keep his baseball career going after Tommy John elbow reconstruction robbed him of the zip on his fastball. Just three years after he saved 33 games, the Orioles traded him to the Texas Rangers for Kevin Millwood in December 2009. Seven months after that, the Rangers flipped him to the San Francisco Giants. He was officially a journeyman reliever.