After the game, I asked him if it was tough to manage – adding that reporters faced our own obstacles keeping focused  in the press box. He said that the game was a reprieve, but so many things during the day reminded him of Monica, including speaking with us on the field after the game.

He expected to see her over our shoulder, like she’s been so many times before following spring games.

“But she [still] is,” Showalter said, getting choked up again.

On Saturday, as the Orioles played their Grapefruit League home opener, several players and coaches wore gray wristbands with Monica's initials written on them in black marker. Initially, the club wanted to put something on their hats, Showalter said, but had to settle for the wristbands.

Showalter said he hopes the Orioles can find a way to honor Monica this season, even though everyone knows she's wouldn't have wanted the attention. 

"Knowing Monica," center fielder Adam Jones said. "She definitely would have been  like, ‘No, no need. Please don’t do it,’ because that’s Monica. She doesn’t want anyone to feel sorry for her. That’s just a testament to how strong a woman she was battling all the illnesses and everything that came along with it."

In sports, we often talk about the legacies that athletes leave when they leave the field. Even though she’d never want to think she did, Monica left such an amazing legacy by impacting everyone she came in contact with.

We will all miss her.