Brown's victim in the Cherry Hill rape says she's made decisions in her life that she regrets. But she refuses to allow her rape to be seen as the reason for her problems.

She said she went from a mouthy teen who sometimes broke curfew at the time of the rape to one who used marijuana heavily, drank alcohol underage and smoked cigarettes. She started having sex with boys, and then with men — for money.

Despite her admissions, the victim has no arrest record in federal court or Maryland state courts.

"I just wanted to hide," she said recently, recalling the aftermath of the rape. "I wanted to do what I wanted to do. I thought I was grown up. I really thought that no man could tell me nothing."

Her mother went as far as to move her to a town on the border of Virginia and North Carolina about two years after the rape. She was expelled from high school for fighting, mostly with boys, but she credits the two years she spent in the South with helping to change her life for the better, and is grateful to her mother.

"She thought it was a better environment," the victim said. "She thought I would get myself together, and I did."

By the time she moved back to Baltimore, the woman said, she started to get a handle on a better future. Until recently, she said, she worked two jobs, one at a fast food restaurant and the second at a convenience store. The store closed down, and the victim said she juggles her schedule at the restaurant with classes to get her GED. She's thinking about signing up for the Army.

On a recent day, as the woman left a recruiter's office at Mondawmin Mall and headed for the Metro, she stopped to think for a moment about how her life was affected by the rape.

"It put a hole in my life; that's all I am going to say," the victim said. "If all of that wouldn't have happened, I would have finished school by now. I would have been doing way more than what I do now. I work [in a fast food restaurant]. I am 21. I am not happy with that.

"I saw a couple of older ladies working in fast food. I don't see how they can do it. I am not going to be 50, 40, anything, flipping nobody's burgers."

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