But, as I grew older, my vision changed. I wanted no part of this greed. I wanted to fix streams, not strip them. I could afford to buy trout for dinner; I didn't have to kill wild ones. For $35, I joined Trout Unlimited -- a conservation group, not a fishing club. I still enjoyed fishing, especially when it took me to pretty places with a fly rod and good friends, but I became a convert to the catch-and-release idea: Fool fish with flies tied on barbless hooks, land them, and gently release them; they'll be bigger when you catch them next year. It's what I teach my son and my daughter. They might one day see even this as a cruel invasion of the natural world. They might come to see my kind of fishing the way I see my father's and not want to fish at all. But that will be their choice, not mine.
For now, I fish. I catch. I catch and I release.
In 1971, he caught a 36-pound cod off the coast of Massachusetts. That
wasn't simply a grand-looking fish that deserved to be photographed, then
quickly returned to the over-harvested Georges Bank to procreate. To my
father, that cod represented a week's worth of Portuguese chowder and a pile
of fish cakes.
He probably would not have bothered to fish Father's Day Creek -- small
water and small trout. "Dinky fish," he'd say.
But I found the place irresistible. A few times a year, I'd make a few
casts to spots where experience told me I should have found a feeding trout. I
found very few, and none more than 6 inches.
Finally, I decided to leave Father's Day Creek alone, making only one stop
there a year.
Then in 1994, something important happened. Someone put up signs by a
bridge: "These waters not stocked. Catch and release encouraged."
Apparently, the landowners had complained about the behavior of the
bait-dunking spring fishermen who hiked through their woods to the river. The
commonwealth had decided to stop stocking my favorite section of Father's Day
Creek. And when word of this got around, the hunter-gatherers took their
appetites elsewhere. Pierre said, "There's no trout there anymore," and he
went off to pillage some other Pocono creek.
This meant the brown trout would be left alone. I suddenly felt, even in
the height of spring, that I was the only person on Father's Day Creek. I may
have been the only man who still believed in it. I had been given the
privilege of watching what happens when people leave a natural trout stream
Months went by, and years. The meadow trail into the woods to the river
became overgrown with thorns and brush; each time I used it I had to clear it.
In all my trips to the stream since then, I've encountered only four other
fishermen, and they used fly rods and returned any trout they caught.
I kept notes in a fishing journal. Each year there were more brown trout in
the feeding lanes of the river, and each year they were longer and fatter. In
this delicate and beautiful place, progress was measured in inches.
In 1993 I caught only six-inch browns; in 1997 I caught 12-inch browns and,
in 1999, I caught one at 14 inches. In 1994 I hooked only two trout on
Father's Day; in 1998 I caught 10. I caught native brook trout, too, and
small, stream-bred rainbows. I released them all.
This little renaissance made me feel even more protective of the stream. I
made a point of never telling Pierre about the river's comeback, lest he
plunder with brass and bait what had become a great river for fly-fishing.
Fly-fishing involves a lot of thinking about fish and their habitat, and
many dismiss it as arcane, too expensive and too much trouble. The attempt to
precisely and delicately cast a tiny artificial fly that imitates the size,
shape and movement of the insects that trout crave can be a daunting exercise.
The process looks to bait fishermen -- the descendant spirits of my father's
generation -- like a lot of work for little reward. "All that for that?"
But one can get lost in the challenge, the geometry of the cast, the
attempt to drop a fly on the current for a few precious seconds, hoping a wild
brown trout sees it coming, recognizes it as food, rises to the surface and
attacks it. They are exquisite little creatures, and they spend a moment in
your net or hand before returning to their holding spot.
Last Father's Day I rose at 7, drank some coffee and drove from my in-laws'
home to the small, overgrown parking area by the bridge. The signs had faded
but the words were still legible: "These waters not stocked." I pulled on my
waders, dropped my fishing vest over my shoulders and, with my fly rod in one
hand, pushed and chopped my way through the meadow trail to the woods and the
The water was higher than normal because of recent rainfall. I stepped
carefully into the stream to avoid spooking trout. I know all the spots where
trout hold. I know this river. If I could, I would live in a small hut with a
Franklin stove along its banks and ask everyone who comes there to fish it
gently -- fool the fish, then let them go.
I dropped a fly known as a prince nymph into the stream above a subtle
riffle and let it drift with the current. It sank slowly. I held the rod over
the river with my right hand and held the yellow fly line with my left.
Suddenly the line stopped. Had I snagged bottom? Perhaps the spot wasn't as
deep as I'd thought. When I tugged on the line, something tugged back.
Something started swimming.
You'll have to trust me here. It's my memory that sunlight fell through the
gloomy hemlocks and hit the stream precisely on the spot where this trout
tried to shake the fly from its lip. And so I could see the silver flash.
I had hooked a rainbow trout.
A large one.
The largest fish I had ever seen in Father's Day Creek.
He swam hard behind a rock and held there until I could gently pull him
away. I reached for my net. I was in mild shock as I squatted and scooped him
out of the river. The net could hardly contain him. The fish seemed too big to
be true, out of scale with the 20-foot wide section of water in which I'd
I stepped to the low bank, placed the rainbow on ferns and measured him
against my net, notching a spot in its wooden handle with my fingernail. (I
later measured the notch at 17 and a half inches.) I then picked the rainbow
up and looked him over. He was not a stocked fish from a hatchery because he
had the bright colors and full dorsal fin of one that had grown up in the
I spoke to the river and congratulated it on its endurance and its
resilience, thanked it for its gift to me on Father's Day. I heard my own
excited voice echo in the hemlock gorge. I held the trout for a moment so that
my father, stirred by my shout, might appreciate it. "I've got the frying pan
ready," I heard him laugh. Then I leaned down and returned the fish to the
water, feeling the muscle in its tail. He was still strong, but he did not
dash away when I released him. Instead, he seemed to look back at me for an
instant as he drifted slowly sideways, before darting into the dark folds of