I am 10 years old, and in the 5th grade. My name is Ronald JosephFrank Voigt. I have had cancer for more than a year. This may well be twoyears. I'm determined to keep a dairy. Right now to January,I will be getting antibiotics. I remember how to do it, but my Mom doesit....
The nurse is going to come tomorrow to do my port. Sometimes, allthis makes me mad, or sad, or all the others, or all of them. Riting to youmakes all my tense go away. Christmas is coming up, and I can't wait. Onour three-foot tree, it has a big angel on the top, lots of angels, santasand reindeers.
Well, good-bye. See you tomorrow night.
Hello, I am back. I don't care about the date anymore.
Grandmom says Christmas is this tuesday. I will start writing thedate again since I know it's on the 25th, I think. Well, I'll draw you apicture this time since it's been a week.
Bye, see you tomorrow night.
Feb. 12, 2002
I am so sorry I haven't wrote in you for so long. I care about thedate now. Since I haven't wrote in you for awhile, it will take awhile tocatch up...
Well, now I have to take this oral chemo liquid with apple juice. Ittastes nasty. Well, I found out who I'm in love with. My old friend Holly.Oh yeah, I have to take the chemo for the rest of my life, unless they finda cure for it. I take it for three weeks, then I have one week off. Thefirst "off" day is this Wensday.
Well, Goodbye. See you tomorrow night.
Hi, I am back. I am writing this at 6:00. My neck and left side of myjaw hurt because I lyed down and slept all day. Guess what? Mom is puttingmy new computer in my room. It has games and even a paddle for the games.It has speakers and even a silver mouse.
The staff members of the RMH (Ronald McDonald House) gave it to me.Well, T-Rex (pet cockatiel) is in my room.
Guess what? Today I am off the oral chemo for a week. Tuesday is mylast day of freedom. Then I have to take it for 3 weeks. How I woulddescribe the taste of it. Yuck nasty yuck nasty yuck nasty yuck nasty yucknasty. Well, Good-bye. See you later.
Guess what? This is my 12th time writing in this book. I have aheadache now. I took medicine for it. I also took my antibiotics...I haveto drink all the time. I also koof a lot. I hate being sick. I justhate it...
I am so sorry I haven't written in you lately. Well, back down tobusiness. A few weeks or a month or two ago, Muffin ran out in the streetand got hit by a car and died when I was up in Baltimore. When I found out,I cried for two whole days. Well, right now I am home in Pocomoke tillSunday night. Then we go back to Baltimore. Tomorrow, Mrs. Jamey (a teacherand friend) is taking me to petmart to get a guinea pig.
Don't know date
Hi. Sorry I haven't wrote you in for so long. It's been about twoyears. I am 12 years old now. Now, I am taking 8 chemo pills each night.Sometimes, they're hard to take, sometimes easy, soemtimes in between,sometimes two of them or all three.
Last night, I missed the last step and my head hit the corner of thewall and my right knee slammed against the floor. I had been making somecookies in my queasy bake cooker, and I was going down the stairs to seeMiss Lisa. The plate flew out of my hands and landed on the floor with abig bang and my cookies went everywhere. Oh yeah, we're in Baltimore. It'sApril, 2003. Tomorrow is Monday, but I don't know the date....
Well, I'll try to talk to you tomorrow.
Bye. Love, Ronald Voigt.
This was the last entry in R.J.'s journal.
Several weeks later, on June 4, 2003, after he'd been told his cancer hadspread to his lungs, R.J. Voigt wrote this rare e-mail to family andfriends:
Well the Dr.'s told us my tumors have grown again, they are now in mylungs. This made me very sad and very mad, I have done so much to make themgo away but they are still here. I do not want to do chemo anymore, thishas made my mom very sad she hasn't told me but I know because she has beencrying a lot but she loves me so much she is going to do what I want! Iknow that God can still take the cancer away if he wants to but he may needme in heaven to help out I don't know but I want to stay here with myfamily but I may have to go up first to heaven.
We are going to try natural medicine only the Hopkins Dr. and nurseswill keep me out of pain and feeling ok. We are getting out of the hospitaltomorrow and going back to the Ronald McDonald house till June 16th, thenhome to Pocomoke, yeah! I am glad we are still coming up to Baltimore everyThursday and going back every Fri. as long as I don't have to be in thehospital. There are a lot of things I want to do before I go back home thenat home. I want to go to the ESPN Zone to play games! I want to go back tothe Marriott on the Harbor and spend the night and eat breakfast there! Iwant to go the science center, port discovery, chucky cheese's, the taxiboat ride....
Well I am going to go I just wanted to let you know that the tumorsare back but to still pray for a miricle I know it can happen if its rightwith God, please pray also that my Mom stops crying I love her and I hatethat this makes her sad.
P.S. I want to go to 6 Flags with my family too
One week before he died, on a Saturday morning in July 2003, R.J.Voigt asked his mother for a piece of paper and pen. He began to write thisnote:
Thank you for everything you have don Dr. Higman, you and the nurse.And mostly Mommy #1, Grandmom, Kimberly, Taylor, Allen, Miss Lisa,chidlife, Miss Marryann.
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