I am so sorry I haven't written in you lately. Well, back down to business. A few weeks or a month or two ago, Muffin ran out in the street and got hit by a car and died when I was up in Baltimore. When I found out, I cried for two whole days. Well, right now I am home in Pocomoke till Sunday night. Then we go back to Baltimore. Tomorrow, Mrs. Jamey (a teacher and friend) is taking me to petmart to get a guinea pig.
Don't know date
Hi. Sorry I haven't wrote you in for so long. It's been about two years. I am 12 years old now. Now, I am taking 8 chemo pills each night. Sometimes, they're hard to take, sometimes easy, soemtimes in between, sometimes two of them or all three.
Last night, I missed the last step and my head hit the corner of the wall and my right knee slammed against the floor. I had been making some cookies in my queasy bake cooker, and I was going down the stairs to see Miss Lisa. The plate flew out of my hands and landed on the floor with a big bang and my cookies went everywhere. Oh yeah, we're in Baltimore. It's April, 2003. Tomorrow is Monday, but I don't know the date....
Well, I'll try to talk to you tomorrow.
Bye. Love, Ronald Voigt.
This was the last entry in R.J.'s journal.
Several weeks later, on June 4, 2003, after he'd been told his cancer had spread to his lungs, R.J. Voigt wrote this rare e-mail to family and friends:
Well the Dr.'s told us my tumors have grown again, they are now in my lungs. This made me very sad and very mad, I have done so much to make them go away but they are still here. I do not want to do chemo anymore, this has made my mom very sad she hasn't told me but I know because she has been crying a lot but she loves me so much she is going to do what I want! I know that God can still take the cancer away if he wants to but he may need me in heaven to help out I don't know but I want to stay here with my family but I may have to go up first to heaven.
We are going to try natural medicine only the Hopkins Dr. and nurses will keep me out of pain and feeling ok. We are getting out of the hospital tomorrow and going back to the Ronald McDonald house till June 16th, then home to Pocomoke, yeah! I am glad we are still coming up to Baltimore every Thursday and going back every Fri. as long as I don't have to be in the hospital. There are a lot of things I want to do before I go back home then at home. I want to go to the ESPN Zone to play games! I want to go back to the Marriott on the Harbor and spend the night and eat breakfast there! I want to go the science center, port discovery, chucky cheese's, the taxi boat ride....
Well I am going to go I just wanted to let you know that the tumors are back but to still pray for a miricle I know it can happen if its right with God, please pray also that my Mom stops crying I love her and I hate that this makes her sad.
P.S. I want to go to 6 Flags with my family too
One week before he died, on a Saturday morning in July 2003, R.J. Voigt asked his mother for a piece of paper and pen. He began to write this note:
Thank you for everything you have don Dr. Higman, you and the nurse. And mostly Mommy #1, Grandmom, Kimberly, Taylor, Allen, Miss Lisa, chidlife, Miss Marryann.
Love you alway