On the "Confessions" section of scarymommy.com, Jill Smokler lets other moms share their most intimate thoughts and concerns anonymously. The results can be comforting ("I do that, too!") but also disturbing ("So, wait, you think your ex-boyfriend is actually the father of your baby but you're kind of fine with it because your husband is cheating on you with your sister?") We asked Smokler, "Do you ever read a confessional and think, 'OK, you are absolutely nuts?'"
"Oh, yeah," she said. "And I'll read some and think, 'You need serious help and I wish I could reach through the computer and find that help for you.' "
Here's a sampling of confessions from scarymommy.com readers:
"Today I left work 25 minutes early. I didn't go straight home. I went to a bar where I sat and drank a beer and played with my phone. No one talked to me. It was lovely."
"I get ridiculously excited to do our taxes every year. It's the only thing my MBA has proved useful for as a stay at home mom."
"I just got divorced and my ex hates me bc I lied about my affair with a guy I've been seeing. EXH has a gf who he loves and I like this guy but ex won't let me move on without hating me in the process. I still love him."
"Last week, I was caught eating Nutella from the jar. Not wanting to share, I told my kids it was poop. They, in turn, told every single one of their friends that I eat poop from a jar. Whatever. I'd do it again."
"I left my job 8 months ago because I wanted to stay home with my kids. Now, I would give anything to have that job back."
"My H is beside himself w/ worry for me. I can't tell him I'm a mess cuz my bf broke my heart. I'm a horrible person."
"Hidden in the pantry in a box labeled 'flour' is top of the line chocolate and a few joints. I rarely resort to it, but it's a comfort knowing it's there."